Where is Eva Rawposa?

Lately, I have had some unusually unlucky things happen. Here are just a few examples:

1/ I moved down the street. The phone company made me change my phone number even thought I was in the same area.

2/ Immediately after I got the new number, I was sexually harassed. I changed the number.

3/ The voice mail on the new number wouldn’t work. I talked to 7 (yup, seven) people at AT&T about the problem. Finally, I was told that they would send me a PIN, by mail, that I would get, at some point. So, because I am frequently at events, I couldn’t give out the phone number for business contacts! I’d get voice mail but be unable to check it.

4/ I decided to go with a voice mail system that both myself and my assistant could check from different locations. Sounds great, right? It was recommended to me by a professional I trust. I mean, really trust. But then, after a day, the number stopped working. (Which of course I had forwarded to my whole newsletter list and put on my website.) It had a message saying “This is not a working number.” Great.

5/ I found out that I was 1 of 5 people in the entire company affected by some weird thing.

6/ I needed new contact lenses but am not close to the place I got them before. The fax machine broke when they needed to fax the prescription to the new place. I am wearing my glasses, not contacts, as I type this.

7/ I got sick. I don’t get sick. But it was a detox. I’ll write separately about that because I think it could benefit some of you.

8/ The internet wouldn’t connect on my pretty new, very high quality computer. Then it randomly started working again when someone else touched it (really, just touched it, didn’t even *do* anything yet). This was someone who just wanted to help.

9/ The keyboard on my phone stopped working. Actually, just the L, the comma, the O, the I, and one other letter. Random.

10/ The CAPS lock button on my computer’s keyboard, along with a few letters, stopped working. For several days. That’s been fun, to say the least.

So, as I was walking to the office from home, I thought… Hmm, after all these weird things, I should write an “ode to my keyboard” with all the funny letters. It would be funny. Then I was smiling and thinking to myself… maybe I just need to flip the switch. Is this my own energy causing this?

Because, usually, everything just *works* for me. Well, since I went raw anyways. I’m just happy. I have energy. I don’t get sick. If things go wrong, I laugh and smile and don’t mind and make fun of it. But not this last few weeks. I’m questioning things. I’m trying to figure it all out all of the sudden. Why aren’t some things working? What needs to go? Clearly, something in my life is dragging me down. [Could it really be ME?]

I was thinking on that same walk, that I’m kind of like Job, in the Bible… but then I realized… Ha! Not really. Way worse things happened to him than me. Can’t be a drama queen, you know? And then I thought of how, he got through it and praised God even when things were going wrong. I mean, really wrong.

And usually I don’t bring much religion into my classes or my blog or whatever… but this was a pivotal thing for me… Am I still praising life and God and the good things that are happening? I know I *should*… but what is “should” anyways? It’s just a word for things we don’t want to do but do because someone out there told us to. That’s what it means to me.

And frankly, I’m not big on “should”. I’m big on benefits and reality and making my own rules. Just because I *should* say thank you, doesn’t mean I will… but I try to be genuinely thankful for the time and love people put into things they offer to me… and in that case, I thank them. Make sense? Ha! Maybe not. Well, that’s how I do things. And it works for me.

So, I was on this walk. Which, I was on the walk, because my mom has my car. Her brakes (on her pretty new Toyota) randomly went out on her the other day. Which means I’ve been car-ting her around, and she’s been borrowing my car. Which is why today, I was walking instead of driving to the office to get some things done. Which is when I thought about writing an Ode to My Keyboard. And then was wondering why these things keep happening.

And I decided to flip the switch. To be grateful and expect the best. And I did.

So here I am, writing what was supposed to be an Ode to My Keyboard. After several days of issues with the CAPS lock key… after I flipped the switch in my head, it is working now. I came on here to make fun of the situation. I didn’t expect the keys to just *work* again. Like magic.

So, I’m writing this partially for my own personal entertainment. Partially because the newsletter is late again. Thanks to computer problems. Again. But more than that, I like to share. And I hope it will help someone out there. If you have read this far (bless you), I have a question for you…

Do you need to flip the switch?

Because if you do, it turns out it’s pretty easy. Take the time to think… do you expect the best? Because you deserve the best. Really.

xxo Eva